~cuba~

Cuba kau dengar
Cuba kau cuba
Diam bila ku cuba
Tuk berbicara dengan kamu
Pernahkah kau ada
Bila ku perlu
Tuk meluahkan rasa hati
Dan bila kau bersuara
Setia ku mendengar
Agar tenang kau merasa
Siapa sebenarnya aku padamu
Mungkin sama dengan teman lain
Yang bisa kau buat begitu
Dan bila
Tiada lagi teman bermain
Kau pulang tuk dapatkan aku
Itulah aku... padamu
Cuba kau lihat
Cuba kau cuba
Renung ke mata aku
Bila ku kaku melihatmu
Pernahkah kau ada
Bila ku perlu
Tuk menyatakan rasa sakit
Dalam diri
Dan bila kau perlu
Setia ku menunggu
Agar senang kau merasa
Siapa
Sebenarnya aku padamu
Mungkin sama dengan teman lain
Yang bisa kau buat begitu
Dan bila
Tiada lagi teman bermain
Kau pulang tuk dapatkan aku
Itulah aku... padamu
Maafkan kerana aku tak pernah
Terlintas tuk menulis pada mu
Salahkan ku
Tak mungkin lagi aku meminta
Untuk kau mendengar...
Untuk kau melihat ke mataku
Siapa
Sebenarnya aku padamu
Mungkin sama dengan teman lain
Yang bisa kau buat begitu
Dan bila
Tiada lagi teman bermain
Kau pulang tuk dapatkan aku
Itulah aku... padamu

*perut sakit*

I always have trouble trying out new food or sometimes even the same food I take. For instance yesterday I had nasi, daging masak merah, sup ekor, telur dadar, timun and some sambal belacan for dinner. After 10 mins, i felt my stomach is burning inside. I knew something is not right but I did not bother it too much. I am not used taking heavy meal at night but yesterday I was forced to eat by mom. She said, 'penat tau ibu order kat kedai' oklah.. I pun makan sikit. So after struggling trying to finish the rice (just a small portion), i felt like i need to go to the toilet. so i sat in the toilet tying to 'ease' but nothing. my stomach kept 'growling'. i kept myself hydrated. but then it makes me wanted to go for a loo every few minutes. haha.. it was a long nite yesterday. then at 2am, i decided to sleep eventhough i am not that sleepy. and i accidentally woke up at 9am because my stomach is giving me the 'signal' but nothing happened. so i had my breakfast, and again the same thing happened.

after few rounds of the trip to the toilet, at last I manged to 'ease' myself. i assumed it is empty by then but it is still 'growling'

arrggghhh...what went wrong!

~lunch~

just came back from lunch. so boring. i just dont know where to go anymore. the most affordable lunch at mont kiara is at the mamak restaurant, which is usually pack during lunch time.. if the weather is ok, then we will walk over to hartamas. but today i am so lazy to walk to hartamas, so we go to mamak, AGAIN!
We dont have much option here at mont kiara. i mean at affordable price. there is a food court but no choice on malay food. really miss the sambal belacan. my choice of food at mamak is nasi goreng cina with chili sauce. the sambal yuks! sometimes i will have nasi campur with mutton rendang and vege. very affordable only RM5.
just waiting for the office building opposite plaza mont kiara to be completed probbaly in a year time. so hopefully we have more options. getting feed up with sarpinos or subway or secret receipe or kopitiam or chakri palace or khaana peena or zakuro or indo-chine or basque lane or korean food or mcd or delifrance. but eating here will cost you more than RM5.
talking about food i am crazy with japenese food. but it will cost me around rm25 if i have my lunch at zakuro (depends on what i want to eat-but usually will be the chicken teriyaki and tempura set). there are few places i've been that offer variety of bento sets with affordable price. there is one in hartamas called sugimoto. (but the bento set only offer during lunch). then there is one at centrepoint in BU. (just cant remember the name)
when i crave for japenese, i will go to sushi king and have the ika! sedap! even the egg custard and the soup pun sedap.

ketentuan

Tak semudah kau sangka
Melepaskan kau pergi
Hati yang meronta, hampa kecewa
ku tekad sembunyikannya dari pandanganmu

Ku rela begini
Berakhirnya di sini
Dari bersamamu terus berpura
Setelah cinta tiada lagi di hatimu

Ku hapuskan airmata dari mengiringi
Kesengsaraan mengharung perpisahan ini
Ku pujuk jiwa nestapa
Pendamkanlah duka
Pasrah pada lara ketentuan ini

Tak semudah kau rasa
Melepaskan kau pergi
Hati yang terluka dikunjung jua
Kerinduan yang tidak tertanggung terhadapmu

Sesungguhnya
Ku tahu betapa sukar untukku
Menempuh hidup
Walau sehari tanpamu
Ku terseksa

*penat*

i am still at work eventhough now the clock showing 7.53pm. i have 1001 things to be done before CNY holidays. as a 1 man show, i am trained to do everthing at one point of time. it's tiring, but it's fun. i love the feeling when the adrenalin pumping when you are in a rush let say to submit reports or completing the accounts. when i first worked here, i was a bit lost. i am still not used to the speed that they need me be at. but now, everything is at my finger tips. i am enjoying what i am doing here. i am in control.

anyway, there are too many news rulings on the statutory deductions this year. first was the epf, then now std. epf was easy. but std, this is very complicated. silap bayar kena denda, silap2 bonus aku melayang! this saturday i am attending a seminar on the new std format. boring!

busy life

Currently I am so busy with work and school. I am used to this kind of life..but this month is a very busy month as I need to complete my accounts by next Wed--usually my director will give me a month to complete the previous quarter accounts. So the impossible has to be possible coz he said he wants to declare 'B'. So to my colleagues, don't forget my 5% fee once you get your 'B'. I planned to come to work today, but somethings up, so decided to go tomorrow.

Today, I will do all my assignments as I am not planning to go anywhere (class just started, assignments on weekly basis). I want to make sure I graduate with flying colors eventhough it is impossible to pull my CGPA to 2nd class upper. ha3 but i don't care. I just can't wait for that moment! After 4 years of part time study, well life was challenging. A memory that I will never forget. Life will not be the same after May. There will no more night classes to attend, or feeling the pressure of completing the assignments/sitting for final exams. No more going to the library studying with friends. National Library-we love going there during exam weeks. My friends and I will planned our leaves so that we can study together. I am so lucky to have them as my study mate, group members, best friends. (you know who you are) we helped each other with our studies(that's important)..now I feel sad. This semester is going to be the last of everything. Especially the trip to the library and the coffee break we will not miss. (belajar sikit, borak je lebih)
Well, what am I planning after May? I have decided to take a rest until end of the year to focus on ME! Then I am planning to further my study. Only 6 months for myself. Well I am going to be 27 this year. OMG! I am happy with my career, I am proud with all the achievements that i have obtained but still something lack somewhere. Being 27 and still single? Well, it's tough. (full stop)

Post-holiday

Well, it didn't turned out as planned. As I mentioned in my first entry that I will be bringing my siblings to watch movie, well I didn't. I was too lazy to wake up that morning. I felt so tired. Anyway, in the evening I had dinner with my buddy. Pitty him, he was home alone for 2 weeks. I went to his house at Amansuria. Nice neighborhood I would say. We decided to go to Centrepoint for dinner. We had Japanese and McD's ice-cream for dessert.

Everytime we meet, the topic would be about why is he still single at the age of 26. He will update me with all the what happened in his life since the last time we met. Surprisingly, he has a benchmark for the ladies he met. I don't blame him for being such a chaser. It all happen when his sister got married. His parents sort of like pressuring him to bring back a potential future wife. ha3

My classes started last week 2 days before the New Year. Thanks boss for letting me go off at 5.30pm. Anyway, the lecturer didn't turned up, so those who came decided to have dinner at Pak Li, Rahman belanja. Penuh meja bulat tu. There were 12 of us. We talked about study, work, life, gossiping. Don't be surprised-all of them were boys. ha2 BOYS REALLY KNOW HOW TO GOSSIP!!! but they just don't admit it.

This week was the worst week for me--AGAIN! I have been hurt AGAIN! I really don't understand it. I was down for the past few days, but I am ok now. He said we are different in sense of I spend most of my times chilling out with my friends. He said he can't accept the fact that 'his girl' spending time with guy friends. duhhh... When he said all that, there is no point to straight things out. I was sad and hurt, but I have to move on. I need myself back. I want to be happy. I was so happy yesterday. Spending time with Bobi and Rahman, doing nothing, just makan and makan. Tau jelah Bobi tu. Then for the 1st time, I went to Satay Station with them. Oh I wished I stay in Ampang, bosan2 boleh join diorg semua. Tapi once in a while, I suka buat keje gile! Biar pun jauh, I akan datang and lepak sampai penat.

So tomorrow, no more tears for me! I want to focus with my life. HE is in my past now! AND I AM LOOKING FOR INTERESTING FUTURE THAT WILL HAPPEN! (rahsia) oopss!